Project Life Tuesday

by jessicaturner on September 27, 2011

I know, I know.

Three weeks.

Three weeks I have gone without a regular Project Life Tuesday.

I promise, my intentions are good.

Yesterday, I got home, my head pounding with a migraine.

A migraine from a night of five wake-up cries from a hungry baby and a dreaming boy.

A migraine from what was coming Tuesday.

A migraine from a mind whirling with lengthy to do lists of work projects and blog projects and life projects.

And so, I nursed Adeline.

Matthew made dinner.

Elias snuggled, watching a show on the ipad.

I then made my way to the bedroom, resolving to pack for a trip my heart didn’t (still doesn’t) want to make. I cried and asked why?

Sometimes our hearts both know the answer and yet don’t want to accept.

I then sat down at my laptop to go through the past three weeks of pictures.

But instead, I went through the ones from Adeline’s dedication.

A beautiful day with hearts grieving over loss and celebrating life.

Adeline all white in the Italian lace that covered my mom, me and now her.

Oh that she may live a life of choosing joy.

 

And after going through the photos, my email showed (1) and it was Ann saying, Jess, are you awake? And I was and rather than blog or sleep, we chatted a long while about Sara, about kids, about 31 Days of Memory Keeping, about deadlines. We resolved to end our conversation half a dozen times, for it was late, but we kept talking.

Trading sleep for community (and project life) is important.

If you are on the ball, please link up your Project Life Tuesday posts. Today, Angie, Adeline and I are headed to Sara’s wake and funeral. I’m grateful to not be traveling alone. If you have a moment to whisper a prayer for traveling mercies and for celebrating Sara well, we would be grateful.




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becca September 27, 2011 at 8:47 am

oh dear Jessica, my heart aches for you. :( I’m praying for you as you travel and yes, you are right, there are some nights we just have to just simply put aside all our responsibilities to talk, visit, and renew. Much love, dear one.

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nicole September 27, 2011 at 9:22 am

Prayers. I know this has been a difficult couple of weeks for you!
Nicole

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Ann Voskamp September 27, 2011 at 2:23 pm

So. praying.

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Erin September 27, 2011 at 6:03 pm

Praying for all of you during this difficult time. I loved the dedication picture..

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Mary September 27, 2011 at 8:25 pm

I have been praying for you and your family as well as Sara’s family. The photo of Adeline in that dress is so pretty. What a great heritage!

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Thresa Davis September 28, 2011 at 9:18 am

I came upon this just this morning in Twitter world which finally led me here. I wish I had found found these pages sooner. I used to work in the medical profession, but can no longer. I have not found the peace with my situation yet. I am striving for it, I truly am. I want to be like your friend & be able to help other’s just by the way I handle the “just one more thing after another” which has been my life for the last 6 yrs. I pray for you & everyone involved today. I admire the genuine love that is obvious. I pray that I can learn to love others more purely. Thank you so much for the Web journey. Keep writing. We need to see things like this. Grace & Peace, Love & Prayers!

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Eat 2gather September 29, 2011 at 9:27 am

I love your blog! I just found you on Sandys blog. I am doing 31days of Meals 4 Sharing on my blog. I would love it if you took the time to check it out. i look forward to seeing what your 31 day series brings. Blessings, Sheila

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