Today marks one year since the birth, short-life and death of Angie and Todd’s sweet Audrey. I have been thinking about what I would write on this day for weeks. And as I sit here right now, I still don’t know. I pray for the prompting of the holy spirit to give me the words.
I remember April 7 like it was yesterday. I remember waking up and thinking, today is Audrey’s birth. God what will you do today? I remember praying for a miracle. That she would live – even just for a little while. And she did – for more than two hours. I remember sitting at my desk at work, waiting for Audra to call with updates so I could update the blog. I remember Elias growing in my belly, kicking as I went into Angie’s room at the hospital to meet Audrey. I remember holding Audrey. I remember holding Angie in the days and weeks that followed.
Today I went back and read those posts I wrote on Angie’s blog when Audrey was born. I am a doer, a planner and a communicator. It may seem trite, but it was one way I knew I could help.
It’s a year later and I still don’t know why God decided to take Audrey to heaven so soon.
I don’t understand why I am not going to a birthday party tonight with Audrey tasting frosting for the first time.
I don’t understand why Elias and Audrey didn’t get to grow up together… like Angie and I liked to dream about.
I don’t understand why my best friend has had to experience such loss.
But I do know this:
I know that in the loss of Audrey, many have found faith in God.
I know that God’s ways are not our ways.
I know that God is faithful.
I know that God gives and takes away.
I know that we are His children.
I know that prayer matters – even if we don’t receive the answer we want.
I know that one little baby’s story has made a profound impact on me – as wife, a mother and a friend.
And I know that April 7 will always be a day marked by the miracle of Audrey.
Please say a prayer for the Smiths today. Thank you for joining us in this journey. As someone who has walked alongside of them during the past year and a half since Audrey’s diagnosis, I have seen the body of Christ move in a beautiful way.
Here is the video Angie made as a tribute to Audrey. If you have not watched it, or if you have, please watch it today in remembrance of the baby who left and continues to leave an impact on thousands.
Sweet Audrey-Girl from angie smith on Vimeo.