I have had this post in my head for a week and a half, and am just sitting down to write it because I feel moved by the holy spirit to share this message right now. Of course, my head is fighting this, thinking, you were going to get dinner made this morning and you just put Elias back down to sleep, so you should be in the shower, but I am going to ignore it and write anyway.
I hope this meets one of you where you are at. I have a feeling it will.
Pete is doing a new series at Cross Point called Backseat Jesus – the idea being that we don’t let Jesus be the driver of our lives – we just let him ride in the backseat, there when we need him, but depending on him when necessary to get us where we need to go.
People, this is me so often. I am type A, controlling, goal-oriented, driven. While these can be great qualities (if used in the right way) and I have been successful in school and work because of these characteristics, they can also be ugly, especially in my relationship with God. You see, I am not good at trusting him. I know he is there. I know I can go to him. Yet, I don’t always let him direct my paths.
Are you like this?
Two Sundays ago Pete talked about the gap between the current you (how people see you/how you actually are and the imagined you (what you would like to be, how you think you are)). We fill this gap by:
He said: “there’s something in your life you pursue more than God. For most people it is something morally neutral (family, friends, work vs. something morally “bad” like drugs). Follow the trail of your time, money and affection and at the end you will find a throne of what you worship.”
He went on to say “Idoltry will more likely be what you do than what you say.”
I have been thinking about this a lot and have come up with many things that often (at different times) get pursued in my life more than God.
I am ashamed. Ashamed that I have let myself get in the way of my relationship with God. And so, I pray and ask for forgiveness. Daily. I am trying to seek him more throughout the day. I am watching how I spend my time and what my priorities are. I know I will stumble – every day.
Thankfully, God is big, merciful and forgiving.
Does this resonate with you? How do you spend your time? Do you need to refocus and get Jesus out of the backseat?
You can watch Pete’s sermon here.
I know I have said this before, but I am going to say it again. Thank for so much for coming along side of me in this journey. I can’t tell you how much your kind comments and emails mean to me. I am so grateful and humbled by it all.